Today I’m designating as what I call a “slow day”
sounds better than a “lazy day”
It hasn’t been LAZY because I got up at 7 am and did my laundry
But a slow day to me means that I’m not firing on all 8 cylinders — I’m just a bit OFF
Problem is that the mangy suicidal thoughts and feelings tend to work their way in, no matter how POSITIVE I try to be…Why do I (ever) feel like giving up?
I could ask WHY for the rest of my life and NOT come up with a good reason…so I guess I need to just accept my self, as I am, with no huge questions to be answered before I go on with my day…
My good friend Lisa has been in touch twice with me, brightening up a rather drab day with her goodness! She always has a good word and a fresh perspective to offer me! My great friend Sandra and I are going to get together later on in the afternoon…this ALWAYS brings me UP!
I gotta admit that these are difficult moments for me. Somehow, for some reason, not for my benefit, these thoughts and feelings of just GIVING UP invade my psyche, and bog me down.
BUT I REFUSE TO GIVE UP and I stand on firm ground when I mention the name Jesus, who is always at my side, and in my heart. I firmly believe that nothing is more important than my relationship with my Savior, Jesus Christ. I may swivel and I may falter, but He never gives up on me!! I LOVE Him with all my heart and Soul and I ask that He shows up in this blog and guides my way…
Jesus says to me: “I am the ONE TRUE GOD, as you experience me as Father, Son and Holy Spirit…You can always count on me to be there in your joys and sufferings…do NOT be afraid! I am HERE!!”
Thank You Jesus for blessing me with Your words and Your Presence…Please help me at times like these when my personal best is compromised by ”the chatter of downness”…I yearn to do Your will, and I ask for Your right hand be upon my head and Your gaze be upon me as I work out these challenges in my day. You are “my everything” and I call on you to bless my friends and loved ones as they meet the challenges of their days.
“My God is an awesome God—He reigns from Heaven above—with Wisdom, Power and LOVE, my God is an AWESOME GOD”…leave it to my Gospel Choir memories to help me realize that I serve the Ultimate Essence of Life—God, on high! And no matter how down or upset I may feel, God has always “got my back” and Jesus’ Presence is a REALITY of my existence!! Thanks for the outstanding gifts of Faith, Hope and LOVE that You offer me at every moment!!