I come to this blog tonight with not feeling so great.
I don’t know what it is or why I end up this way…but I’m feeling somewhat pessimistic. I remember clearly the other day when I had the windows down in my car and I was driving over Washington county and Heritage Park with my rock&roll cranking LOUD and me soaking in the sunshine!! I was joyful!
But it seems so fleeting, as I struggle once again with feeling off balance and kind of dreadful! What is this bipolar disorder dealing with me now? I did get my tax envelopes sent in—did well this tax season! Kinda proud of how I handled it!
I asked Sandra this afternoon how she sees her future. I told her that I don’t seem to have a future. I don’t know what I want of life, or what to do next. I feel lost! Can I say that? I FEEL LOST and like I don’t understand what direction I am heading—that is if I am heading a direction!!
Where am I supposed to go and where am I supposed to do it? Sometimes I just feel so dis-whatever…JUST DIS!! Guess I’ll just leave it at that tonight.
Rich