Back to my blog again, after another BIG day out & about!!
Gotta admit that I did not expect to be writing here this evening…it’s just me and my cat Murray enjoying some down time together…I’m glad to be in touch with my silly cat Murray who brings me such joy!
Why did I not think I would be writing here tonight? I dunno, I guess because I had no clue that today would end up being an important day for me—and for my loving X-wife Sandra. After our divorce some 2 years ago, I moved into an apartment about 10 miles away, to start my life again as a single man. It was not easy, but I did it…
Separation from whatever NORMAL was and is takes its tole on a guy, as it probably takes its tole on Sandra too. We have come to love one another even deeper than before—BEING THERE for one another as we wade in the waters of life apart from one another…though we have been blessed by God to continue being there for one another!!
Gratitude seems to be the theme of my waking thoughts lately—grateful to be alive, grateful that I made it through a llooooooooooooong winter—grateful to have my companion Murray to play with…gratitude for the NAMI friends I have (Nat. Alliance on mental illness) who I share a support group with each Saturday morning…grateful for my loving brothers and sisters who help light my path!!
I am also grateful for the sense of mental health stability that I am experiencing at this time. I have not had the ravaging suicidal ideation which at one time or another has plagued my psyche and caused me to cal 988 sucked hotline at times. I have been blessed with the gift of friendship with numerous friends and family members!! And once in a while I get the feedback from them that reassures me that I am heading n the right direction. This is KEY for me—to know that the people I know and love are supportive and ever hopeful that I will find my way!
I thank You God for the blessings I have received as I make my way down that yellow brick road moving ever closer to the WHO I am supposed to be and the ME I want to become!!
Rich
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